Let my prayer come before You and enter into Your presence; Incline Your ear to my cry! For my soul is full of troubles, and my life draws near the grave. I am counted among those who go down to the pit. I am like a man who has no strength, cast away and abandoned among the dead, like the slain who lie in a grave, whom You no longer remember, and they are cut off from Your hand.
One thing I admire most about the Psalms is how real it is. In Psalms 88-89, Heman the Ezrahite and Ethan the Ezrahite pour out their hearts to God in song. Heman was a gifted wise man, first identified in 1Kings 4:31 and in 1Chronicles 15:16-19. He was a Levite, and he was musically gifted. His ministry was worship during the time of David. I love how Heman, even when he is feeling great despair confesses his faith in God. He is trusting that God will stand beside him no matter the circumstances. He also is not afraid to voice his pain before God, he is not pretending that everything is okay. It's not okay, and expressing that to God strengthens him.
How long, O Lord? Will You hide Yourself forever? Will Your wrath burn like fire? Remember how fleeting my lifetime is: for what vanity, You have created all the sons of men! What man can live and not see death? Can he rescue his soul from the hand of Sheol? O Lord, where are Your former lovingkindnesses, which You swore to David in Your faithfullness?
Ethan the Ezrahite does not hesitate to bring God into question. He believes that God has given promises, yet none of those promises have come to fruition. He reminds God that He has not been keeping the promises given to David, consequently, His people are living through harsh abuse from their enemies. Everyone is in distress--the psalmist, the people, and the king! Still, through it all, he is praising God! How can this be?
When your life is full of dashed promises, how can we still praise the name of God?
In my life there have been many days of distress and broken promises. Days that I have felt like Heman and Ethan, only able to see the unfulfilled portions of my life and spewing out distress. God hears it all, yet still brings me back to a place of needing to trust that He has it all under control. Even through the pain, He has a plan. He has proven to me that though I cannot see a way out, trusting Him is the answer to the way. Pressing into a life of daily trust will open doors that my distress does not see.
Where does your trust abide? Is God asking you to move your perspective of what He is not doing to trusting Him through the not?
Trusting God's people has always been a struggle for me. Yet, I have found that when my trust is founded in my Jesus, I can trust that He will lead me to trusting His people as well, because He brings trustworthy people into my life. He chooses them, not me. And, if I feel reason to distrust, He will walk through that with me.
This, is authentic faith in the God that is not afraid or insulted to hear my heart. All of it, I have to trust that!